Ever since we were little, I never thought anything about if we were friends or if we were even close. But now i'm kind of stuck on whether or not were close or if we ever even considered each other as friends??. I've started to realize, whatever happened to us? I don't even know if the feeling is mutual and that what i did can't compare to what you have done. I know that sounds shallow but it's the truth but i know that one of these days you'll realize what you've done in the past/what your doing was all a mistake and that you regret it/it'll never happen again. I just hope this "thing", this awkwardness doesn't continue between us because i've tried to connect with you, i've tried to get close and "bond" with you but because of one little thing i said(well at least i think that's what it was) now you've lost your trust in me(if there was any "trust" between you & me to begin with). I guess i don't understand you well and vice versa. So i know i sound chicken or bein' a lil prick for writing down what i feel on xanga where no one would probably see it but how can i make it public (especially on Tumblr since you have 1 as well now) when it's only really between you and I(and a tad bit of the barka-duh). You might not know this and you might think that i don't care that your stuck living(and possibly learning) in another country where you only have family(who your not very close with) but at times i actually do miss you. Of course it's not the same without you, though i can live without those other stories you always tell with "friends" who i personally don't think are that important in your life. But hopefully you won't hold this grudge for long & fix this with your family(parents) and admit what you're doing is because your a teenager and it's only natural for you to become that way. Sorry for those of you who don't understand what the hell i am talking about but i just wanna say one thing to "her".....

If i have offended you in anyway(especially if it has to do about what i have said that night at your Thanksgiving party)then i'm sorry, but to me (and please accept this if you haven't already) it was bound to happen because looking at your "records"(and i mean past history), it seems that when you do something, especially if it's wrong there will be consequences..especially if you do it more than once & don't think we(the barka-duh) doesn't know about all the things u did. It's not like your parents kept it a secret(or at least the other parents). So basically i'm sorry and whenever you get over your whole whatever is happening...I hope you will be willing to apologize to all of us.

On top of a hill

Staring at the light blue sky

Sun shining brightly

If you don't know what a Haiku is, it's a Japanese poem that consists of only 3 lines. The 1st line and 3rd line are supossed to be 5 syllables each and the 2nd line is supossed to be 7 syllables.This haiku is supossed to express a calm and serene feeling and it's supossed to have a spiritual insight to it to. So guess what it is and comment.

BTW i'm going to put up a X-mas poem i made and a poem Kristine made 4 me that i submitted 4 the Tablet's contest on "Keeping Christ in Christmas" contest before Christmas...so look out for those two.